dead broke
i have no more money already, cannot take it ahh..
its Cindy's birthday this month, so the cell (or rather, Connie and Sheryl) chose this big size soft toy dog.. thanks to the singapore sales, the price was slashed from 85 to 42.5, 50% leh!
how wonderful. the dog is reallllllly very soft and huggish-able, i want one for myself too.. haha..anyways i doubt i can get most of that money back..cannot take it ahh...
it will cost another 25 for the div retreat..
another 20 for the the choir retreat
owe Cindy 10 bucks
15 for my cell shirt (its really nice, so proud of it) and 15 for Dao Hong's shirt
as you can see, i am really broke. cannot take it ahh...
dying under the stress too..mid years are coming, i need to score for it.or else i will really just die man, shoots..feeling so stupid now
plus the nationals..doubt i can even qualify for semi, but what the heck, go for the experience..stress man..cannot take it ahhhhhhh
had a random thought while on the bus to study. i had this urge to just drop every one of my commitments, and for awhile it felt great, weird. struggling alot spirtually these days, man..i am really just drowning can?
came across something CS Lewis wrote, he said:
"courtship is the time for sowing those seeds which will grow up ten years later into domestic hatred"
he meant it from the devil's point of view, but it make sense huh
prefects
i had to go check out the choir retreat site in view of the planning of the games. man, it was a tiring task, walked all the way from east coast macs to the NSRCC. it was ok, even though rachel was there, haha..hope the games will turn out fine, have to start praying. happened to pull out the tightening string on rachel's mp3 bag, its spoilt now. what an idiotic move right? going to kick myself later.
anyhow, went back to see the prefects too, it was grand, really missed those guys.. we were fooling around, hopefully it will not give the new prefects a bad impression of us, haha.. saw my batch of prefects too, saw the prefects my batch trained, it was swell.. yeah, got me thinking about the time when i was inducted, all the days lived in fear..( we got blasted aloot)
it kinda was worth it, seeing how we gel together in those crappy times.. now i really miss those days..those crazy peeps who stood by me when i got into hot soup.. those moronic plans of getting into hot soup.. yeah, its gone..time to look forward huh
looking at the board (exco peeps) caused me to realised we indeed have grown alot..well, all the best prefects, hopefully you will make a difference..if all else fails, you still have us, and lastly the hands of God. haha, make the panel proud man.
alot is happening around me actually.. the talk of the town now is of the end times, and i find myself not being able to catch up spiritually. its frightening, especially when so many people pin this standard on me. right now i kinda want to just drop commitments, stop waiting for that person and just quickly finish my studies.
sadly, i cant do that, i have to continue with my responsibilities, continue waiting( really really hate it), and study JC for another year.. i have to say this retaining thing has made me, different? a bad way actually.. wadever the case, i guess i have to move on..move on spiritually, move on emotionally, mature and moveonmoveonmoveon.
nothing worth staying here for.
I'll go, but i cannot go alonecause i know i'm nothing on my own.casting crowns-in me
