eh?

promos

are coming in 9 days.

then i will have a five day break of nothing-ness! ohhh man..

posted by ling quan @ 7:12 AM 0 comments

cannot already

i needed somebody today,at least to talk to. just about anybody will do.

i found nobody.

everyone was either too busy, or they cannot be bothered.

disturbing them would thus be, selfish.

what a horrible day.

posted by ling quan @ 3:29 AM 0 comments

clingy

thats what i think i am..soo, better stop liao

my bag was invaded by ants for the past few days. i had no idea why, until (thank God) i decided to empty my bag for washing and found a Mars bar wrapper inside it. that explained the ants attack, and how i had to sit through lectures with them crawling all over my face, dying inside my ear.

they smell horrible too, its amazing how 1 ant can stink so badly..sort of like this iron-ish smell. sick..

yesh, came to appreciate my ex classmate Kenneth after a long while. He is a very cheerful, cool friend, and also incidentally my punching bag. whenever i was really upset, i know he will be there for me, even till the point of neglecting his other priorities ( to a certain extend lah). talks alot of crap, but never fails to be quiet when i needed some space. i could not stand him initially actually, but always found myself seeking his help, because i actually needed it alot of times.

yeah, thought about it cos i became a punching bag myself, and it must have sucked for Kenneth when i was in those bad moods.

well, i just spent 1 hour trying to convert songs in AAC format to WAV. i dint manage actually, and hopefully i did not download any viruses in the process. arghh.

feels like i am banking on support that never comes

posted by ling quan @ 10:57 PM 0 comments

mao mao

recently there has been this cat that keeps coming over to my house. i think she belongs to somebody, but i have no idea who.

my older brother calls her mao mao, and it fits her pretty well. haha, she will drop by in the evening and then demand someone to feed her. We do, of course, and so she became pretty friendly to us, ahha. it kinda feels nice when a furry animal comes snuggle beside you.

also, someone approached me to tempt this kid with some ice cream chocolate. its some lesson for the girl on not accepting anything from strangers. too bad i had to play that moronic role, and in the end the little girl screamed at me to go away. way to go kid, you passed the test. i dint even get to keep the ice cream. (the guardian bought it for me to offer the kid)

i am terribly frighten now, its 2 more weeks to my promos. these few days i feel like the sec1,2 me, the insecure, unhappy, low self-esteem me. it feels horrifying, but i realised this was the me God fell in love with back then. wad a mysterious God.. sometimes i think i am a burden to alot of people around me, and i am wasting away their love and care, but God is great, cause i can be the biggest burden to Him and it doesn't matter, hahahaha.

posted by ling quan @ 7:44 AM 0 comments

promos are coming again

wah..very fast.. very exciting..haha..

on alot of nights i will suddenly have flashbacks of my previous promo results given to me, and i can actually hear Mervyn crying beside me telling me to "be strong, be strong".

sheesh, i think that was the best encouragement i've ever got, and it only took 4 words. maybe i should use it on someone when he or she is down, but how to cry on the spot man?

really miss S11, my previous class.. hope they will do their best for the coming "A"s, which is like, less that 70 days away. yeah, cos cannot repeat this time round. not that i wish they will, yeah..

So i had my Canoe Nationals a few months ago, it was good. Jie Sheng and i managed to enter the semis, but that is because there were only 4 boats and SA cap, so its auto qualification. haha. never the less, we beat TP in the semis, so.. not bad lah ah?

training is suspended already, and i have not touched or drank Macritchie water for 2 months. it's quite scary, cause i know when we go back, Jie Sheng and i will sure cap like mad, and coach will yell at us more, ahha.

Coach recently met us individually. i tell you its horrifying. I intend to forget the conversation, cause he was telling me that God is always there, so i should stop going to church till my "A"s are over. i have nothing to say, afterall, i am a repeat. seh. there were more things, i just dont feel like replaying that talk man..

as for other things..well.. the church choir retreat was just over, and it was great! haha, 'just' is about 3 months ago, hmm.. i was blessed, especially by Pastor Sam and his message ( previously known as Brother Sam, got ordained!). It was on "Painful, but necessary" things.

cell-wise, my kids are cool, just wish they will get less violent, hahaha.(hope they read this) i love them alot. they just had a cell blog, i pray we will use it and use it properly, no nonsense please!Cindy has been great, i wonder what i will do without her, she is really my favourite co- leader, cos i only had 1 co leader in my entire life. haha.

nothing already, i am off to study(really) and i hope it will be good. i met up with Serena to study a few times, but i think i better stop cos i always distract her with my lazing around, haha.

posted by ling quan @ 7:33 PM 0 comments