pued again
went to ubin again. this time we did more moutain biking, buttocks hurt.. knees pretty weak now.. nearly got blind when the tree branch scratch across my eye lid, thankfully i am short, see, it pays to be short.
had money probs before we got there, and i learnt that in order to transfer money from an account to another, you need to transfer at least 1000 dollars. Sadly, magesh's account was a little short, so he could not. we did try though, haha..
So we were like, playing torch light on the bus, yeah? and my torch has this morse code nonsense.. magesh sent out some stupid morse code and made us guess it, it was first , SOS.. then, it was the sms ringtone thing, the di di di diiii diiii, di di di... you know? and i realised that, that ring tone coincide with the three letters, S-M-S ( S is ... , M is -- ) .. lame lah, but it was revelation to me..
dint really meant that support group was useless.. i really think that God gavemi my division people because they were the best there is for me.. hai, you guys rocks, sorry if my entry was selfish, i hope you read this!
end off with a quote from Cindy, haha.. if we are really on fire for God, and our hearts are in the right place, everything will go right for cell
Amen.
eyes wide open..
went to many Confrences this few days..the first one would be Benny Hinns, one.. very awesome, so impressed by the slain-ing, even the pastors helping him got slained.. little children getting healed, Aids no more, very beautiful.. had to leave halfway because the bus services were terminating.. called sheryl too, because that silly girl forgot the time, and i brought her home in a cab in the end.. We had no money, and i had to go withdraw, but the first ATM machine was down..thankfully, God provided another one, and we all got home safely..
Den there was the planet shakers one! that was awesome too.. realised i judge too much, and i rate hype by whether it is good or bad.. but God showed me that there is no such thing as a bad hype, because we are all unworthy.. yet we are justified freely, swang sia..haha..jumped till my legs hurt.. haha, went there with Jeremy tan and jeremy quek, i bought the synergize shirt too!!
attended this worship worshop with Jestyn too.. realised that he blessed me alot, and i hope i learn alot alot in this worshop, lead better worship..
PU
went to Ubin on monday, it was really pretty fun..
we rented our bikes and went towards the scary looking colonial house in the morning, but halfway there i got reallllllll dizzy, cos i dint eat anything before that.. so Kai Yu went ahead to scout, and he came back telling us that the house is guarded, so we could not go there..
so we went back to the front and drank coconut..the thailand coconut really rocks man, and we had like,2..haha.. Kai Yu also brought fried rice.. after we ate, we went towards the quarry...
when we got there, we found the fence torn, and there was this "no trespassing sign".. but we went in anyway.. it was a long pathway with alot of thorny plants.. and when we reached the bottom, we found..a boat..! it was pretty small, and had a capacity of 2 people.. so kai yu and i went first.. we secured the boat to a string we found.. it was previously used to hold the boat, but it snapped.. after that, we rowed out, pretty lame, and took stupid photos.. then shawn and magesh went on to the boat, they navigated the boat better than us..haha.. all these while we knew we will be in deep soup if we get caught, but thank God we dint.. magesh and shawn rowed out and got this durian, floating in the quarry.. and we went back up, broke the durian and went off.. some family was going in the quarry when we got back, pretty weird..but i am sure they can pay the fine if they get caught..
after that we sped off to the prawn farm.. the door lock, which we broke the previous time, was changed into a newer one.. the gang tried to break the lock again, with a huge rock.. and they kept on smashing the lock with it.. Kai yu and i climbed in first, and the constant smashing caused this bike handle to drop from the back of the sign board.. attached to it was..the lock keys..haha..obviously they dont use that door much, or else they would not hang the keys there. we opened the lock and rode our bikes inside.. when we got in, some dogs started barking at us, and soon the owner came out to chase us away.. very soon, the dog got his friends and chase us! Kai yu dashed for the gate, while i followed magesh, who was with shawn, going up this hill.. i could not bear to leave them fighting with 3 dogs mah.. we got ready to fight the dogs, but the owner call it away..thank God.. but he went to lock the gate, and went off with the keys.. donno wad was he thinking.. we had to carry our bikes out and we also found a smelly dead lizard in the well.. they placed it on the lock for revenge..haha.. but i removed it, and magesh supported me, cos..he said we might want to come back..
then we went of to another part of the quarry..cutting the long story short, i tried to catch the fishes, and they actually come and suck your toes when you place them in the water..haha
then we went to the house, it was pretty scary..cos by that time, it was like 7 pm already..and ubin had no street lamps.. den we went to the beach to just lie down and relax..we also managed to fit all 7 deadly sins in winnie the pooh.. bored people..
when we cycled back, it was night fall already.. Shawn had cramps too.. sian.. had to lie him on the floor to stretch him.. wild boars charged infront of us when we sped back, real scary..
too lazy to type on.. saw spiders with many many babies on its web, like, 100..
amused the cell with this tale today, hopefully i can catch their attention like today for every week, by the grace of God..
and..the morons walked on!
my entry just got erased.. ARGH..
so i just came back from Dom's party, and it was like, so cool..? haha..the first 3 hours were spent doing nothing, until Kenneth came, along with his girlfriend. Aravinath and raja nearly got drunk..thank Goodness Srikanth threw away the alcohol.. haha.. we also played around the swimming pool..haha..
it was then Dom brought us to his room, and there hangs many lord of the rings blades.. beautiful.. along with maps and the different models..rings.. wowwee.. i love the legolas blade.. we went on chatting in his room until Dom's uncle came in..and started talking about politics..argh.. he went on saying wad, water comes from parents, den i rebutted it comes from God..big mistake..i dont think he is christian.. the rest kept on kicking me, telling me to shut up, cos he was like, talking for over 20 mins? later Raja told me he was drunk.. i doubt so..
Dominck had a pretty horrid past.. hope he gets on with life well..
went out with ben and magesh the next day, and we went home around 6.. i decided to take a short stroll with magesh, but we kept on detouring until we walked on for 3 hours..
first, we walk into the expressway. the overhead bridge was 30 meters away, but we dare not risk it, dont want to die.. it is the expressway..so we climbed down this drain thingi, and went on..to a HUGE detour which was like, 1 km, in exchange for that 30 meters..life's little irony.. haha.. Magesh also told we that was his second time walking the expressway, the first was when he was in kindergarden, and he decided to take a walk down the Expressway one fine day..haha..
Then we ended up walking this big patch of field wif dog poop and frogs..used our HP as light source, but its useless.. towards the end, we had to cross this narrow alley, while clinging onto the fence.. lest we fall into this filty drain.. we marched on, with the ground giving way, pretty dramatic.. hah.. it was dark, and there was one lamp post in the middle of the path.. it was then magesh told me,
"i am not trying to freak you out, but there are alot of spiders above us"
i looked up and heck, spider webs, spiders and red ants were directly above our heads.. we quickly went on but later saw that the road was a dead end, blocked by the school fence.. so we went all the way back, past the nasty field, and there i stepped onto a frog's head, but it dint die, cos i moved away after magesh yelled..haha.. when we went around the field, we realised that we could have continued from the fence there..sian..
the whole night was like that, jumping, exploring, star staring..hhaha..fun sia..
went out with shawn ko the next day, caught the movie series of unfortunate events..den went down to recruit express for his job hunting.. after that, we went walking around in the CBD! becos shawn said he wanted to see more.. like some sua ku..haha... but it was pretty cool, dint know CBD got so many shops.. realised that there was a direct bus home..so happy..haha.. it took me 55 mins though..
just came home from prayer walk..so fun..haha..God rocks.. and came to realise alot of stuffs, like we are insanely unworthy of His grace.. but as i pour down all my pills of unworthyness down the Eno of God's grace, it all dissolves!! YAY!!!
lalala...lala...la...
la.
still pretty depress..hahaha...
still very sian about my results.. on how i cannot make it to JC becos my mom dont want.. that i dint make it to SAJC.. really need some leaders or mentors to come and encourage me..haha..but its ok, i just need to make sure i be a good leader when my members need me..please help me to be one God..
just recalled the time when Cindy called me at 1.30 am and her first statement was " You still sleeping ah!" haha..crazy sia.. but thank God i wasnt asleep la, and we went on talking about cell..really very glad that God made her my co leader, she trust God very strongly, i donno wad i will do without her man..
went for support grp too, and it struck me on Jia Jun's faith.. it never did died.. and he has the least problems simply because he tries to solve other people's stuff before his.. yeah, he might not be the best speaker or the most attention catching one, in fact he is always the one at the back ground.. but he never fails to support, never fails to aid.. he was the first one to ask me about my results..and the first one to cheer me up.. i had this sudden urge for him to pray for me, haha.. because unlike me, he prays not for people to hear.. really, God uses the weak to show His glory, not that JJ is weak, but this example he is setting really really really speaks to me..
everyone was pretty droney today during support grp.. i dint wanted to go one, but because i need to play for Jan, so i had to go loh..den very quiet, until jan took away my git, and made me comment on the Div. meet.. hai, so i snapped out of sad sad mood, ahah, cos the atmosphere there was pretty heavy already.. donno if that is right or not, cos i nv ask them to support me.. maybe next week la, when they are feeling better
went out with magesh, ben and shawn again..haha..had lunch, played some arcade and pool.. it was fun, but spend like, 18 bucks..hai, had not much money le, working very sian.. so doono where the income is going to come anymore.. family facing some finicial probs.. yeah.. sian..had to leave early too, cos need to go for support grp mah..den bought
shoik la, but regretted a little, cos it cost 20 bucks..haha.. hai..bus fare also no money le..
Mom justed walked into the room, she is pretty stressed, cos of all the work.. everynight sleep at, like 6am..sian.. i am also showing her some attitude, cos she is making me go poly, something which i dont want..i see her point la, but i guess i am just being very childish, and she has to put up with me.. feeling pretty bitter, making her go through all this.. she came in to tell me dont always be so upset,cos it hurts her too.. she offered talking to me to sort out the reasons for asking me to go poly and telling her what i actually want.. but i rejected it, cos i pretty much know its pointless.. she is very strong, but i know it hurts inside, i feel very bad.. wonder if i will put this on till i graduate poly..
very very sian..haha, i feel like breaking down..hopefully that wont happen.
Cell members asked me about my results.. think i set a very bad example for them.. hai.. Nick told me, Dont be sad, take pride in what you do and always give thanks to God.. i think thats what he said.. very sweet, it rocks to have such cute members..
thought of Jeremy Tan.. someone who left Church for another church.. met him in choir, he was a good singer and mentor.. he decided to take care of me spiritually when he saw me one day heading towards the kopi tiam alone, and after offering to eat with me, he took up the responsiblity of showing me care.. he made sure i was alright when i looked down, and even after he left, he came back during Christmas to pass me a card..sometimes he will sms sweet msgges, and called me recently to ask me about my results, made sure i made the right choices on poly..even offered to take me down to look at his poly.. i mean, i take care of my cell partially because i need to account to Liduan and Sam, but Jem is doing it out of, his freewill you know.. but i am very passive towards his care..if i were him, i would have gave up on me le loh.. God's love really shine through this brother, i hope God blesses him abundantly..
i also do have this very cool mentor, Celeste.. i guess after having so many leaders, she is the only one who cared loh, i donno how much, but more then the donno how many ldrs i had la.. dont even know how many of them backslided.. she will send me christian songs, until i feel so pai say..every Christmas she will also gimme beautiful cards..she has the nicest cursive handwriting i ever seen..i nv sent any back..sian sia.. asked about my results too, the only leader who did that..haha.. i cannot imagine going on without such leaders.. would have prob. BSed le.. thank God for her undying concern, i pray that God will also show her His undying concern.. hehe..
I guess it helps to count the blessings when one is down.. i realise i have many beautiful people around me, although, very clearly, not perfect, but moulded into huge vessels to hold other smaller vessels through their tough times.. i want to be there when my kids run into problems.. i hope i wont be another hypocrite..
very very upset.. but somehow, God seems nearer now
though the pain is, an ocean
tossing us, around, around and around...
You have calm, greater waters
higher mountains have come down.
JOC-mercy song
sad sia..
worked on thurs..at Ritz carlton...cool sia, did some cocktail reception, the whole night was cocktail reception..was pretty ez.. got a new nametag..haha..6 bucks..
think the boss quite sing shang wo, asked me to come down and work again..no way man..to tired le.. when i was working, the people ard me were very interesting.. got this guy who is 195 cm..and his fren..both O level results waiters.. den got this malay feller.. who hates a chinese manager i was working for to the core... pretty scary..
went out today. with Magesh, ben and Shawn.. fun la, all the lame nonsense in the git shop, cos ben wanted to get a WAWA padel.. so magesh and i fooled ard.. Shawn got himself a 240 bucks disman too..shiok sia.. used his allowence from Serve..
Alvin is fine too.. thank God.
so the results came out.. i did real badly.. 19 pts.. so sian loh. hai.. cannot go SAJC le.. pretty bitter la, all the prefectorial nonsense.. wished i dint do so much, den do more studying.. Sanjay did pretty badly too..22 .. feel so sad for him..Raja also.. was so nervous b4 the results we had to calm him down.. hai.. srikanth also.. did badly..Mark dint qualify for SA too.. i think these are the peeps who should get the scores they want loh..hai........hope Cherlene gets to stay in SA too..
Ben got what he wanted, tts pretty cool..
Very sian loh.. mom forcing me to go poly.. i want to try out in SRJC.. but cannot loh.. hai ..damn sian... dont feel like going to Church, everyone will be asking .. real irritating.. dint really honour God with my results.. feel pretty crappy now.. ahha..
hope i'll handle situations properly..
