eh?

glass shards on the floor

hmm.. just had a ldrs retreat.. it was pretty awesome, cos its really time off to just know each ldr better and draw nearer to God.. Wei hao and Zheng hong shared on "silence and solitude" and "fasting" respectively.. it was so cool... like all the older ldrs teaching spiritual discipline.. it was very awesome.. Zheng Hong started the sharing with The Lord's Prayer.. so cool..learnt alot.. ahh.. morning devotion was taken by triston, so nice too.. haha.. but i fell asleep during QT..so jia lut..
last day was like, the maddness.. cos we played vollying for like, 3 hrs?! from 2 to 5.. then i had soccer with Bro Sam.. haha... he only had 45 mins of sleep for tt day.. gosh.. he just told me tt he had insane muscle ache the day after.. poor chap..hahahahahah... but frankly i got to know him more..
on the whole, i expected more, but i guess i have to do my own share of seeking..

speaking of seeking, i am at the brim of cross roads man... its like the smooth path is over, and to walk on, to have a stronger relationship with God, to lead on for cell, i have to start walking on glass sheds... i doono wad to do le, its insane i tell you.. today is so chaotic.. cell attendence 13.. gosh, if nth is done, i am going to bring down alot of potential lives man.. how? how? how?
i also tend to see my spiritual walk as a race with other people, a competition.. tts so bad, cos harbour alot of pride.. i donno wad to do le, i dont want to come up with theories and try to solve my own probs, or cell probs le.. i am so sick of the surface man.. i need to dive deeper, and i have no clue on how to do that.. besides, there are glass sheds on the floor.. how man, how God?

thank goodness i have Jeremy.. different Church.. but i think i am the most accountable to him.. he makes afford to check on me leh! goodness.. i dont think i can even share with peeps in Church tt well, but who cares.. must make sure as time passes by, i make afford to check on my church peeps..if i dont BS..haha, no lah, wont one la..

the last thing i need, is to be heard.. but to hear, what You have to say..

Please speak.

posted by ling quan @ 11:34 PM